Officially Budak Medic UKM!

April 20, 2019. That was my last time updating my blog 😭 I rasa bersalah sebab ada yg tanya pasal syllabus matriks - Pengajian Am Matrikulasi (PAM). SO SORRY! I baru baca comment you :( kalau ada yg baca ni baru nak masuk matriks, PAM ni subjek wajib. Basically takda apa sangat pun. Takda written test. Kena buat video dengan presentation that contribute to your CGPA. But depends on your respective lecturers jugak okay. Bagi I sebenarnya subjek ni COOOOL! Sebab pengetahuan am makes you more human - belajar about political hierarchy and stuff. Tapi ikut rezeki. Ada lecturer yg mengajar dalam kelas in an interesting way. Some do it in university way - let you guys loose (or to be exact, wander alone hahaa).

Ayeeee so I wanna talk about my journey in academics. About how do I get here - medical course. Supposedly dah lama cerita sebab right now I dah masuk sem 2 pun 🤣 today is my first day in semester 2. Baru je naik dari cuti semester. Cuti sem seminggu je :( masa study week lagi dah plan nak buat itu ini. In the end, only a few in my to-do list that was achieved. Aih teruk betul time management. Yela dah merasa cuti "lama". Memang la marathon Kdrama, berfoya-foya (in a good way 😝), overdose tidur, etc.

So my last story tu pasal I grad from matriculation college kan. I planned to work within that ample time but a few things happened here and there. I wasn't in a position to find a part time job. Actually nak sangaaaat jadi cikgu hahaha. Guru ganti jelah; not as a career. More to seeking experience. I suka educate orang. Because only then, I know what am I lacking and how do I improve. I always feel like I wanna do more for those people around me. Undeniable, that's what makes me aim for medical course. I started to feel the tinglings of becoming a medical doctor when I was 15. Masatu banyak tengok Kdrama - medical genre. They looked so cool in scrub. The humanity. The responsibility. The genuinity. I fell for it. Lagipulak Dr dalam Kdrama nampak lagi mencabar as compared to Dr dalam TV3 HAHAHAHAHA! Lepastu as I studied Biology in form 4 form 5, I started to feel interested in human biology. How does the body work? How does the body compensate for optimum function? When I put something in my mind, I feel more determined in doing it. Biology I tak pernah tak A in every exams. Even in matriculation. Chemistry was good. Physics? Ke laut 🤣

So I got my result for semester 1 matriculation - 4 flat. Alhamdulillah. Tak expect pun. Sebab rasa macam tah pape je jawab. Lagipulak matriks takda monthly test ke apa ke. Takda mock test. Kalau ada pun, initiative lecturers. Tetiba sitting for PSPM 1. You are expected to make mistakes. Because by doing so, you are actually learning (motivator vibes). Throughout studies, insecure nak ambik medic sebenarnya. Lepas tahu result, baru feeling determined. Life matriks ni busy sangat. Macam takda life langsung pun. Kawan I matriks KMK (Kedah). She said dia takda la busy mana. So I guess the environment plays a big role :) dekat KMNS ni pun setiap petang confirm ada students turun padang untuk main. Sometimes cemburu. Pandainya bahagi masa. I mengaku I am a late bloomer. Awal2 masuk matriks memang susah gila nak terima hakikat. I bukan dari boarding school. I took a lot of time untuk uruskan diri - basuh baju sendiri, cari makan sendiri, etc. Hari2 I spend most of my time dekat surau. As if mengasingkan diri untuk reflect myself - why am I here? I rasa I mentioned in earlier post yg I was accepted in Asasi Sains Dengkil but I rejected that (ke takda?) dah masuk matriks, mula la syaitan hasut macam2 bad thoughts. Memang since secondary school, I wanna opt for foundation studies. Matriks ni tak pandang langsung. But ALLAH Maha Kuasa. Hujung2 waktu bila kena buat keputusan, I got really confused. I seek guidance. Dan petunjukNya adalah MATRIKULASI. That's why I masuk matriks. I ambik masa 4 months tau nak adapt! Another factor was, my lecturer ni garang sangat hahaa. I jadi terbeban dengan dia. Rasa terpaksa je study. Bukan sebab nak pun. Ha bila subject dia dapat A, tahu pulak bersyukur 🤣

Semester 2? Huhu. Slack sikit dekat Maths. I got A-. It made my CGPA for matriculation studies became 3.96. Close call, man! Nvm.

Sooooo kan isi UPU tu kan lepas dapat result semester 1. So I letak all top 4 choices as MD (Doctor of Medicine). I told you I'm determined kan hehe. Tapi lepas dapat result sem2, kena kemas kini UPU ikut kesesuaian CGPA. Pilihan UPU yg ada interview memang takleh ubah dah. So I just changed choice no5 and below. Something related to medicine and society. Masatu I tak kira. I nak jugak kerja dalam environment hospital! #determined

Our batch dipanggil interview even before result semester 2 keluar. Nak I share ke experience interviews? Hee another post eh. Waktu result sem2 keluar, I dah demotivated. Cemana nak masuk medic kalau bukan 4 flat? Requirements not necessarily 4 flat. Tapi ofc lah yg lain perform kan? Yg sipi2 ni macam reserve je. So memang tawakkal. I dah prepare mentality jadi nurse pun hahaha.

RESULT UPU CAME OUT
Result keluar pukul 12pm. 12.03pm I dah checked HAHAHA. Memang terkejut gilaaa dapat offer to MDUKM (Doctor of Medicine, Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia)! 🏥🎓🥼 MY FIRST CHOICE IN UPU. Haa memang tak expect pun. Serious talk. Kawan I, result sem2 dia jatuh teruk. Ada B. But he was accepted at UiTM Sg Buloh, doing medicine. Lama2 tu I dapat tahu kemasukan ke medic ni, dia tengok result sem1 and performance in interviews. As long as result sem2 takda la sampai C, in sha Allah chance you sama je dengan students 4 flat semester 2. Lagipulak, once you masuk med school, 4 flat in matriculation studies means nothing :) sebab everyone starts from zero again. Everyone knows nothing. Go at your own pace. Set your own pace. Start all over again. My medical lecturers selalu pesan: "don't live in your past glory." Why? Sebab yg masuk med school semua pandai academic. But everything differs in med school. The system. The syllabus. The methods of teaching. So kalau you asyik fikir you ni budak top SBP ke asasi ke matriks ke, you are in your comfort zone. Pastu malas nak usaha and tend to study last minute. Medic kalau study last minute, as if gantung diri sendiri jelah ')))

September 12, 2019. It was in September when I enrolled as a medical student at UKM. Awal2 tu rasa macam tak percaya. I kept looking at my matrix card. "Betul ke nama aku?" "IC aku?" "Aku memang ada tempat ke dekat UKM?" I came from an average family background. My parents weren't academicians. My siblings studied science, work decent enough. Average. Simple. We got nothing to brag upon. I takda relatives Dr pun. I was the first in my family to go for medicine.

So yeap, that's roughly my journey to medical school.

➹ Experience going for medical course interviews - MMI system
➹ Experience preparing for MDUKM
➹ Experience in semester 1

I think there's a lot to update nanti. Slowly kot hahaa